It occurred to me that today, Mother’s Day, might be a particularly joyous and difficult day for many of my fellow bloggers. Joyous in the sense that so many of us with cancer have been sensitized to the quiet joys of life. And surely experiencing the giggles and whispers of children and grandchildren on this special Sunday morning is something grand to appreciate. Indeed even looking forward to church services or afternoon dinner with those grown “children” is a cause for joy.
But this day, like many holidays, can be difficult when, because of our illness, we have cause to wonder if this is our last Mother’s Day, Easter, Thanksgiving … It is hard to imagine that we might miss out on the unfolding of our children’s lives. That we might not see a graduation, wedding, or birth of a child. Having witnessed all of those things while in remission from a disease which I was sure would kill me, having just last week rocked 3 year old Sophie and 1 year old Isabel to sleep in my arms, a blissful hour and a half with one cuddled in each arm, I could weep at the thought of not having experienced that.
So I will be interested in what I find tomorrow on my fellow bloggers’ sites. I wonder what reflections I will find on the passing of Mother’s Day 2009. I have an idea that it might be interesting to post of collection of these musings. So if you would like to write me something of your thoughts on the day, I would be gratified. Or perhaps I will reprint selections from other blogs.
Below I publish my first guest blog, actually an emailed comment from my fellow blogger and mother, Michelle, printed with her permission. Her thoughts on the reasons we blog and of the role her children play in her motivation.
Take Care, Dennis
Guest Blogger – Michelle Hastings ( Michelle WILL Win Against Colon Cancer )
What we do by blogging it to provide information, support and care for others going through their cancer battle. It’s something I wish I had seen more of while I was sick, and those feelings of helplessness and hopelessness during the beginning of my fight are what keep me active on my blog. It’s a lonely thing to go through, but having people to relate to, talk to, and get support from makes all the difference. It’s truly what I live to do now. It’s part of who I have become, and I am so proud that my kids are able to have this kind of example set for them. I think it’s going to make them better people in the long run – can you imagine a better outcome from a cancer diagnosis? I can’t.